Trauma has been the best thing to ever happen to me!
Wait, what did I just say?
TRAUMA saved me!
Before the events that happened in 2013 and beyond that resulted in me being permanently labeled with C-PTSD and disabled, I wasn't living.
I seemed to have it all - a successful career sitting at a piano and singing with kids all day, a budding side business, owning my home in Toronto, traveling the world...
...but I still wasn't truly alive. I was on auto-pilot doing the things that I thought were expected of me and that would make me happy.
I had handled many setbacks, trials, and tribulations up until this point and felt I was strong and resilient, and to some degree, I had been. When my brother killed himself, it rocked me to my core and brought me to my knees.
I saw the world differently. I saw people differently. For the first time, I felt and understood FEAR and it crippled me. It forced me to evaluate my life and realize that nothing was truly as it seemed. It was a façade.
I was forced to make some pretty significant changes and I lost everything. I thought my life was over and didn't want to continue living.
Then I realized that I had the power to change my narrative and own my story. Own my reality and shift to make things happen for me that were truly powerful.
I dug deep and there deep inside were so many things I had stuffed down that hadn't been dealt with and were festering. I had to sift through the mess, clean it up and clear it out in order to build myself from the inside out.
Was it easy? Hell no!
Was it quick? NOPE!
Did it tear at every fiber of my being while doing it? IT SURE DID! But...
Here I stand, completely in my truth, living authentically, owning my power to make change happen, and serving and helping others do the same.
Trauma taught me how to love. It taught me how to give. It taught me how to value and honor myself. I learned to love myself - my true and authentic self!